lunesque

Title: You and I, unselfed
Summary: Leonard woke up after a battle to discover Barry had learned his secret.
Pairing: Barry Allen/Leonard Snart
Rating: PG-13

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Hey guys, long time no see! I have a fic! I haven't done a fic announcement on DW in years. :DDD

Title: Plus One
Summary: Barry wanted to introduce Leonard to his family as his boyfriend. It wasn't a good idea, but what the hell. The kid made him soft.
Pairing: Barry Allen/Leonard Snart
Rating: G

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My hand has been slow at healing, but it is healing, and is mostly okay if I don't overuse it. I need to remind myself to take ibuprofen when I'm at work, though, because yesterday left my entire arm aching from overuse.

I haven't really done anything interesting — I'm still working on various coldflash stories, and I've actually created a sideblog on tumblr to focus on my original writing, which... I haven't touched in months. Years? Maybe. Ugh, that's the worst.

BUT!

In an effort to get back into writing original fiction, I have gotten a card from origific_bingo so hopefully this will catch my interest.

( Bingo card hidden behind the cut )

In the last few days, I have watched the first season of American Gods, stayed caught up on Castle Rock, and now dungeonmarm and I are on the last two episodes of season 2 of The Exorcist. I don't usually watch so many things all at once, so I'm a little shocked and surprised and pleased.

(Also, why did I stop watching The Exorcist in the middle of S1?? It was giving me everything I wanted, it was scary and suspenseful and had a ship that I almost wrote fic for. Why did I abandon it?? S2 basically amounts to: I love John Cho, but S1 was quality!)

I have not written anything in a month, and I'm starting to feel the creep of NanoWriMo coming up behind me. Is anyone else trying it out in November?

I haven't really been doing much since I last posted—mostly, I think I'm suffering deeper and longer downswings in depression, in which I'm functional at work and then have zero spoons for the rest of my life. But I'm feeling pretty okay now, and I'm making lists to help with my productivity, so we'll see what happens.

Conway Pride is next Sunday, and I'm super excited to be part of it; last year they had some great jewelry vendors (I still think fondly of a pair of green glass earrings I didn't get) so I'm going to take a little more money with me and support them. I've got a new ace shirt to wear, which is pretty cool.

Next week, my dad and I are going to see a production of Beautiful at the Robinson Center. It's a musical I haven't been particularly interested in, but it is a musical and I like her songs, so I'm in. I guess I missed the big productions (I really feel like The Lion King as around at some point?) but oh well. I'll see the others eventually.

As for fandom stuff, I have sunk deeply into Steve/Bucky fic. Every once in a while, i get a craving for their dynamic and wander off, but apparently the last time I dipped my toes in was ages ago, because there were so many good stories to read, and I've been reading it almost exclusively for the past six months. My writing has mostly slowed to a standstill, since I'm still heavily into coldflash. With the lack of new canon for them and my own actual dislike for the majority of Flash fandom, I'm sitting at a precarious position. At this point, I'm only keeping up with my wips because of saekhwa and sperrywink. (Also, I owe Sperry a fic, so I definitely can't forget that!)

For now, though, I hope everything's going well with all of you, and hopefully I'll have something interesting to share the next time I pop up on DW. ♥

This seems to be the story of my life at the moment—busy busy busy at work, until I'm completely laid out with something.

This time, I was super busy at work, until dungeonmarm gave me their stomach bug. I've basically been sleeping and vomiting for the last two days, so. Not great. But I'm starting to feel better now, and I have tomorrow off, so I'm cautiously optimistic. I managed toast yesterday, so my goal is rice today. \o/ (My tiny goals, let me show them to you.)

In other news, one of the positions I've applied to online has requested I fill out another specific application, which I think is a step in the right direction. Now that I can be awake for more than a couple of hours at a time, I'll see if I can find my updated resume on my old laptop, since I apparently did not upload it to gdocs like I thought I did. Google already owns the rest of my life, why doesn't it own this part, amirite? ;)

I—okay, on second thought, I'm going to cut this for spoilers and/or sad talk: ( Cutting for discussion on the AIDS crisis and also, weirdly, a coldflash story (It's only two paragraphs) )

I recently got a tattoo! It's not quite two weeks old and has begun, I guess, the itchy as hell part of healing. It's the NC symbol from Bitch Planet. I've been wanting it for years, but only just had both the money and the ability to have it done this month. I'm super pleased.

Just wanted to drop in and say:

1) I've been writing a coldflash fic for nano, and it's at 20k and still not finished i want to die.

2) I have had the flu????? for the last week???? Which I guess is me actually TRYING to die. I feel so rotten, it's the worst. I haven't had the flu in like, 20 years? I don't like it.

3) My Siamese cat Jill goes to sleep with me when I do, and lately she's been pulling my hand toward her, palm up, so she can use my hand as a pillow. It's the sweetest thing.

Hi, everyone! Work has been a monster--everyone is so freaking disorganized, and there's a severe lack of communication in the store. I haven't seen it this bad in ages. Tomorrow is actually the anniversary of my hire-date, so I will officially have been working at TJ Maxx for five years, making it the longest time I've ever held onto a job. I kind of hate it, but now that I'm full time and have benefits, it's hard to put myself back out on the job market.

On October 10th, I was invited to a special luncheon, which they held to celebrate the associates with tenure, and the ops manager from the Little Rock store tried to convince me to become the cash office associate for them, which was kind of funny and nice.

A not nice thing, though, is the fact that I got written up for three tardies over the course of twelve months. Like, really? Whatever. Not exactly happy about that, but I'll deal.

In other news, I completely forgot about when fandomlovespuertorico was actually doing the auctions? And it looks like we have until 6pm EST, so if you're interested in bidding, you can hit my offers up here.

I'm going to do a couple of fic announcements shortly, and I'm still working on updating my fic index. (I hadn't updated it for a year? WTF!)

Okay, so it's Tuesday evening instead of Monday, but I have caught up and I am here! ISTG tumblr's easy, passive consumption has ruined the way I interact with fandom. Thinking about writing out an entry makes my soul escape from my body, and I keep thinking that I don't have anything to say.

I'm ashamed to admit that I had to go back to my previous entry just to find out what I said last, isn't that ridiculous? Dreamwidth, I love you so! What is it about you that makes me skip interacting for lurking instead?

On the job front, I did finally get upgraded to full-time, so I've got INSURANCE and BENEFITS and it feels like magic, it really does. I'm still working half in the cash office and half up front as a cashier supervisor, and I'm still in charge of the ALPHA meetings to discuss shrink strategies. I feel like I'm doing so much there, and yet so much of nothing all at the same time. On October 24th, I will have officially worked at TJ Maxx for five years, which means three things: I'll get a dumb five year pin (I don't even remember where my three year pin went) there's apparently a luncheon? And I'll be officially getting THREE weeks of vacation, and I'm sitting here thinking, like, I struggle to take two weeks of vacation, what the heck am I going to do with three? Sit at home a little more, I suppose. :D

My last entry mentioned that I made a three layer chocolate mousse cake, and I seriously sat here for two minutes trying to figure out what the hell that was. But I remembered! And yeah, it was good. LOL!

I'm still deeply in the coldflash fandom, even though I don't read any of the fic, and my writing has slowed down to a crawl. It's so hard to get enthusiastic when I feel like I'm the old, holding up the wall with my vodka while I watch all the kids do dumb kid stuff. I want to engage and make friends, but I also feel intensely uncomfortable trying to carve a place in there. Maybe I should just be the mysterious, quiet blog that posts activism and fic and not bother trying to inject my personality. IDK.

Two weeks ago, saekhwa flew down from D.C. to visit us, so scheherezhad, dungeonmarm, and I all went to sweet_and_low's house for the first time, and the five of us all hung out for four days, eating pizza and apple fritters. We're trying to pick up our D&D again, and while I'm still stuck as the DM, I think I'm getting better at it, so we're all having more fun. dungeonmarm keeps hinting that they may DM at some point, which makes me gleeful, because I'd love to just play a character again.

I'm definitely doing NaNo again this year, even though it's been a while since I successfully challenged it, and I'm hoping I'll actually get my head in the game this time and write something. I've been feeling an itch to return to my original stories, and I don't know if that has something to do with my lack of fic production or what.

The Arkansas Repertory Theater has released their 2018 Broadway season, and both The Lion King and Les Miserables are coming to Little Rock next year, so I'm going to try and see them both. Speaking of Little Rock! They have the Central Arkansas Pride Festival on October 28th, and Jay and I are going to be there! They're going to be walking in the parade with a group of co-workers from Ally, but they think maybe I can tag along. I'm going to but this cute lesbian ace shirt, and I hope it'll be fun.

Lastly, I think I'm going to be throwing my hat in for fandomlovespuertorico. I've never done charity writing before, so that should be an interesting challenge.

Other than that, I've watched a bunch of movies (most recently Gerald's Game, and even though that's not one of my favorite Stephen King books, Carla Gugino as Jess is amazing) and I also signed up for MoviePass? It should be coming in this week, so I'm pretty excited.

I hope everyone is happy. American politics are shit and brains are stupid things, and the world may be going to hell, but I want you to know that I really do think about you guys a lot, even if I'm not here often enough to say so.

ETA: I also have a beta account over at WritScrib, which is presenting itself as a kinder, gentler alternative to Tumblr. I'm cautiously optimistic, so if you have a beta account there, don't forget to friend me! ♥

I have my new battery and new cord for my laptop Nashtasha, so I feel like she's practically good as new, which is excellent, because I have zero money with which to buy a new laptop. Let's see what else has happened.

I got a week of vacation off in which I did nothing but write id fic that won't see the light of day, played Mass Effect: Andromeda (I'm sooo close to the end, I'm literally in the middle of the final push against the kett!) and petted my cats. I literally didn't do anything else. It was super nice and also super annoying, because damn it, I still have to make phone calls about my insurance and I could have used any of that time to do that.

Speaking of insurance, I'm working full time hours, although my job keeps listing me as part time, because they're total assholes. I have to get off my ass and find out if I can actually get insurance through my job.

I did make a three layer chocolate mousse pie yesterday, and it's very good. A+ work, self.

I also bought a new deck of tarot cards last Friday, but I've only touched them once this week. :/ I may just have to accept that my atheism is so deep at this point that even self-reflective tools feel like a waste of time. I'm going to give it a couple more weeks and try to see if I get anything from them and try to actually get my brain to shut up enough to actually focus on them, but I have the worst time trying to concentrate.

In fandom news, yep. Still writing coldflash. Still watching that shitty show. It's pretty much the only thing I'm consistently watching these days. /o\