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Okay, so it's Tuesday evening instead of Monday, but I have caught up and I am here! ISTG tumblr's easy, passive consumption has ruined the way I interact with fandom. Thinking about writing out an entry makes my soul escape from my body, and I keep thinking that I don't have anything to say.

I'm ashamed to admit that I had to go back to my previous entry just to find out what I said last, isn't that ridiculous? Dreamwidth, I love you so! What is it about you that makes me skip interacting for lurking instead?

On the job front, I did finally get upgraded to full-time, so I've got INSURANCE and BENEFITS and it feels like magic, it really does. I'm still working half in the cash office and half up front as a cashier supervisor, and I'm still in charge of the ALPHA meetings to discuss shrink strategies. I feel like I'm doing so much there, and yet so much of nothing all at the same time. On October 24th, I will have officially worked at TJ Maxx for five years, which means three things: I'll get a dumb five year pin (I don't even remember where my three year pin went) there's apparently a luncheon? And I'll be officially getting THREE weeks of vacation, and I'm sitting here thinking, like, I struggle to take two weeks of vacation, what the heck am I going to do with three? Sit at home a little more, I suppose. :D

My last entry mentioned that I made a three layer chocolate mousse cake, and I seriously sat here for two minutes trying to figure out what the hell that was. But I remembered! And yeah, it was good. LOL!

I'm still deeply in the coldflash fandom, even though I don't read any of the fic, and my writing has slowed down to a crawl. It's so hard to get enthusiastic when I feel like I'm the old, holding up the wall with my vodka while I watch all the kids do dumb kid stuff. I want to engage and make friends, but I also feel intensely uncomfortable trying to carve a place in there. Maybe I should just be the mysterious, quiet blog that posts activism and fic and not bother trying to inject my personality. IDK.

Two weeks ago,

saekhwa flew down from D.C. to visit us, so

scheherezhad,

dungeonmarm, and I all went to

sweet_and_low's house for the first time, and the five of us all hung out for four days, eating pizza and apple fritters. We're trying to pick up our D&D again, and while I'm still stuck as the DM, I think I'm getting better at it, so we're all having more fun.

dungeonmarm keeps hinting that they may DM at some point, which makes me gleeful, because I'd love to just play a character again.

I'm definitely doing NaNo again this year, even though it's been a while since I successfully challenged it, and I'm hoping I'll actually get my head in the game this time and write something. I've been feeling an itch to return to my original stories, and I don't know if that has something to do with my lack of fic production or what.

The Arkansas Repertory Theater has released their 2018 Broadway season, and both The Lion King and Les Miserables are coming to Little Rock next year, so I'm going to try and see them both. Speaking of Little Rock! They have the Central Arkansas Pride Festival on October 28th, and Jay and I are going to be there! They're going to be walking in the parade with a group of co-workers from Ally, but they think maybe I can tag along. I'm going to but this cute lesbian ace shirt, and I hope it'll be fun.

Lastly, I think I'm going to be throwing my hat in for

fandomlovespuertorico. I've never done charity writing before, so that should be an interesting challenge.

Other than that, I've watched a bunch of movies (most recently Gerald's Game, and even though that's not one of my favorite Stephen King books, Carla Gugino as Jess is amazing) and I also signed up for MoviePass? It should be coming in this week, so I'm pretty excited.

I hope everyone is happy. American politics are shit and brains are stupid things, and the world may be going to hell, but I want you to know that I really do think about you guys a lot, even if I'm not here often enough to say so.

ETA: I also have a beta account over at WritScrib, which is presenting itself as a kinder, gentler alternative to Tumblr. I'm cautiously optimistic, so if you have a beta account there, don't forget to friend me! ♥

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Sometimes it is a lot easier to lurk and read than actively post and interact, so I get that. But it's also nice to have the update. Yau for fulltime work and for three weeks holidays (four weeks is standard here, but I usually only take 2 weeks and build up the rest for big overseas trips).

It's definitely nice to be around, that's for sure. I think I'm going to actively try to save some of my energy specifically for posting, even when I'm not really doing anything interesting.

As for vacation, four weeks sounds sooo nice. We can't really save ours up, though. We have to use all vacation/personal time before our year rolls around, or we lose it. :/

Oh, dodgy! How could you possibly plan a big trip?

Although we tend to have the opposite issue -- it's easier to take a week or more than it is to take the occasional day. Logically it shouldn't be the case, but taking a day or two always feels awkward.

I'm guessing that my work thinks that you could take all three weeks at once? That sounds like a big trip to me, but it would make it miserable for the rest of the year. D:

I'm going to have to look at WritScrib.

Yay for more vacation time, even if you don't know what to do with it (I take a lot of mine as a day here, a day there to help keep me from going insane).

It's very rough, but everyone on the beta is pleasant and hopeful so far.

Man, just taking a random day off and using vacation for it sounds so nice. I have to turn my vacation requests in at least two weeks in advance, so there's not really any room for spontaneity. Boo, Retail!

Even if you can't have the spontaneity, you can still at least schedule a day here or there. It's amazing how much just one extra day away can do for you.

That's very true. Just having three days off this week was so nice!