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[lunesque]

I feel like I'm crumbling a bit at the edges. I have school in two days and work and when will I feel like an adult, really? I'm supposed to be one already, but I think I just feel lonely instead of mature.

How I can feel lonely with 40+ voices in my head, I've no idea.

However, my Conrad!muse tells me that the Vault I've got in the refrigerator will help my mood a great deal.

I'm pretty sure he's lying, but I'll go drink it for him anyway. And then I'll write. Something has to come out of the way I'm feeling tonight.

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[ishuca.livejournal.com]

sometimes you never feel like an adult.

sometimes, it's like life is the dream and the world in your head is reality, and wait, people eating on the inside does not mean nourishment on the outside.

sometimes the state people refer to as "adulthood" is nothing more than a loss of joy and wonderment that every single person in this world has at one time or another, before they lose it, leave it behind, something.

i'm not saying that a certain kind of maturity or responsibility is not a very good thing to have. self-preservation, as it were. but i am 27 years old right now, hon, grown-up if anyone ever was, and i know that i am most certainly not an "adult."

you do what you need to. moving out probably would be good, yes. but maybe not. it depends on you, not on some idea of adulthood that comes with a written list.

anyway, i love you, from my immature heart.

[lunesque.livejournal.com]

Blah. I don't know. *laughs* Even immature, you're so much cooler than I am! :P

I love you too, regardless of whether we're adults or not. ♥

I also hope you feel better soon.