lunesque | (no subject)

Sometimes I sit here and wonder what I'm doing with my life.

And sometimes I know what I'm doing, and everything is all right.

I'm kind of between feelings right now, not sure what I should be or where I should go, when it seems that everyone I looked up to when I was younger have their own plans and own lives fall into place.

I had a friend once, except I don't know her anymore. I linger near the telephone but never call her because I don't want to be disappointed again. I've already been disappointed enough.

But it's nights like last night that remind me how lucky I am to have my friends; it's nights like last night that remind me that I'm loved. When I'm caught in between sandwich hugs and projectile minature chocolates; when I remember that playing video games with other people is so much more fun than playing alone. Days where Rick is on the sidelines and my dad proves just how amazing he is.

For once, I'm warm.