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lunesque ([personal profile] lunesque) wrote2002-10-17 01:47 pm
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To Regret and Ishuca, for showing me I'm not alone

Um...well, here's just a little ficlet. I hope it makes sense. *bites lip* And, of course, I hope you enjoy it. :)



Avada Kedavra.

No one understands what we have, do they? The constant twist and turn of hate, the breathless moments when the only thing we see is each other. The want and echo of something more. There was a time when I wouldn't have been able to see it, to understand what it was, what it meant. But that idyllic innocence is over. Now I understand only too well.

Avada Kedavra.

You always followed me. Everywhere I turned, I could count on seeing your face, sneering in boredom, spying over a windowsill, lurking behind the corner of a corridor... laughing at my misfortune and rolling your eyes in icy disdain at my foolishness. I could count on you existing to torment only me. In a way, I was yours, and you were mine. I thought that you would follow me for eternity, into the darkest places of the world... I thought that you would follow me here, where Cedric left me.

But you didn't.

Am I here for you? Perhaps yes. Perhaps no.

"Avada Kedavra."

I didn't think I was going to be able to do it. Now you can come with me, just like you always have. Horrified gray eyes stare at the ground between us. Did I ever tell you that I was going to be Slytherin? I don't stop until I get what I want. Ever.

"No. No. NO!" You scream. You hold him close, tears--tears?--streaming down your cheeks. "FATHER!!! NO! PLEASE, NO!!!"

My wand drops from of numb fingers. Just seeing you there, clutching at him, with tears--

You were innocent.

I thought you were selfishness incarnate, a superior bastard who considered himself that much more above the rest of humanity. But... you were in a world of mirrors. Your every want and need was answered instantly, and you were confident in the knowledge that your life was perfect. That anything you couldn't do yourself, your father would take care of, and teach you. There was nothing you couldn't have--there was no one who told you 'no', or took anything away from you. Until me. And now its gone, I can see it in your eyes.

I can see it.

I wish I could say I'm sorry, Draco.

But I just didn't want to grow up alone.

Re:

[identity profile] moriavis.livejournal.com 2002-10-18 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, no! That's not why I write fan fiction at all! I write it because it's fun, and allows me to try out different styles. Besides, even if I were tempted, there's copyright infringement laws and a whole bunch of stuff. Technically, fan fiction is illegal. *grins* But thanks for saying it was excellent. :)

[identity profile] felinias.livejournal.com 2002-10-19 01:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Well actually Fanfiction means fantasy fiction. It started up in the mid '60s then died down and came back in the late to early '80s
but came back again with Harry Potter. There are people I know and have read who write stories of Star Trek using the same characters, even sending the stories to the executive stations and they've actually been used in some episodes.

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[identity profile] moriavis.livejournal.com 2002-10-19 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, there's fantasy fiction, and then there's fiction written by fans for the stories they love, as you obviously know. But episodic fan fiction and book fanfiction are really different things. But the point is, this story is fan fiction, and there are copyright laws, and I'd rather be safe than sorry.