The past, watch me mourn it. And then play games.

[lunesque]

Apparently, this is just one of those nights when I look online and just...miss all the old online friends I used to have. The people I don't talk to any more, the people who don't post anymore. I know we were all kids, once upon a time, and that everyone grows up and grows away, but I miss the thrill of discovering a shared love, of seeing a new person's name on my friends list and feeling gleeful because I was part of their lives. I feel that way about everyone on my friends list now, but I'm greedy, and want more. When I was younger, I felt a sense of community that I don't feel anymore. I don't know if it's just that I am losing my ability to fan, or if it's just because I'm a bitter old fandom spinster. It's hard to tell sometimes.

So, because I have promised to post this meme for a week now, everyone should play!

a_gentlemans_revolt was reading this random conversation about identity and decided to label himself as specifically as possible.

Let's ignore number 14 in my profile and pretend I love labels! I want to be as specific about myself as I can be.

I: am an American, an agnostic theist, white, cis-gendered female who is pansexual with homo-romantic tendencies.

What are you? ♥

Comments

[saekhwa]

When I was younger, I felt a sense of community that I don't feel anymore. I don't know if it's just that I am losing my ability to fan, or if it's just because I'm a bitter old fandom spinster. It's hard to tell sometimes.

Wow, this. I've been thinking about it a lot, ever since the four of us started discussing it weeks (months?) ago. I can still fangirl, but goodness, I remember when friending meant actually becoming friends and squeeing about fandom whatever but also sharing real life stuff.

Which is why I don't think you've necessarily lost your ability to fan because the excitement for characters and stories is still there (at least in my opinion). It's just ... the sense of community isn't there so much. And of course, we've discussed batshit crazy fandoms that we wouldn't touch with a freaking barbed-wire, poison-laced spear of doom unless it came with the additional benefit of smiting. It kind of kills some of the squee and excitement.

And then you remind me how freaking old we are, fandom-wise.

Gah! I miss it!

So, if I pretend you love labels (;P) ...

I am: a bi-racial (half black/half Korean), U.S. citizen, monolatrist Hebrew, pansexual, polyamorous lesbian, queer, cisgendered female.

[dungeonmarm]

I'm curious--what does 'lesbian' mean in this context, as it applies to you?

[saekhwa]

Having a romantic and/or sexual desire for other women and/or a sexual relationship/connection with other women.

[lunesque]

I think he knows the textbook definition of 'lesbian' sweetie. I think he was asking about what does the 'lesbian' label mean as applied to you. You're pansexual, and in a long term relationship with a man. Doesn't 'pansexual' preclude 'lesbian'?

Or is this a confusing way of saying that when involved with girls, you're poly, versus being mono with boys?

[saekhwa]

Ha! >_> God I suck at reading, apparently.

Oookay, let's try this again. Being pansexual is in the context of me, as a whole.

Being a poly lesbian is in the context of my relationship with said boy. So, pretty much what you said stands?

Our relationship is complicated so I'm still not sure if this makes any amount of sense.

[lunesque]

*___*

Absolutely none.

But I think you said I translated correctly. For a writer, you suck at clarity. :P

[saekhwa]

I'm not good at writing me things, but your translation is the closest. :P

[dungeonmarm]

Originally, I came up with "I'm a celibate mostly-homosexual panromantic cisgendered male with transvestitic tendencies," because the conversation was specific to gender and sexuality. These terms are pretty accurate, but I'd prefer 'queer', which is a lot friendlier and less clinical.

I also consider myself an American and an Arkansan. And I'm an atheist with a Christian bent.

If anyone has any questions about my self-appointed labels, I'd be happy to explain how they apply to me.

[scheherezhad]

I am an American, Arkansan, mostly white/part Latina/part Native American, polytheistic, somewhat genderqueer but female leaning pansexual with a growing preference for females as I get older.