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[lunesque]

So, apparently I actually do have an ego regarding my writing, which I honestly didn't know I had before.

I let evanjeline take a look at my half-finished Supernatural fic, since it's from Sam's POV and she has a more solid grasp on Sam and his motivations than I do (surprisingly) and she was all like, "This is right, but WRONG WRONG WRONG!! It's like Dean's looking into Sam's head and you're writing what he thinks Sam is feeling!"

And I was torn between 'well, fine, then you write the damn story!' and 'I should delete it, because I obviously suck.'

Gah. I'm used to writing wangst, but I'm not used to feeling stung because someone thinks my characterization is shaky.

I still don't know if I agree with her.

Comments

[lenainverse.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I understand how you feel - it's terrible to have someone you respect tell you that your characterization needs work. Especially hard because characterization is usually one of those things we authors tend to take pretty seriously.

I don't think this is about "ego." I mean, it stings me when people I respect question my writing in any way and I have about the lowest self-esteem ever. ^^ So you're not big-headed at all! What you are is a person who cares about her writing and wants to do well.

What I do with crit that stings me is to let is sit for a while - few days, week, whatever - and then, once the emotional punch to the gut has subsided, take a closer look at what the person said to me. If necessary, I revise the story, but I'm trying not to because then I'd never stop rewriting and never get to new writing. If you like the advice, try to use it in your next piece. If not, no worries - you're the one who needs to be happy with it! ^_^

*hugs again* I hope you fee better. I do understand, I've SO been there myself, too many times to count. But you are a great writer, so I hope the doubt subsides very soon. <3

I usually can't do-live-action-show ships but DAMN I need to watch SPN.

[lunesque.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sure I'll be fine with it, and probably soon. I was just feeling sort of like, 'what the hell?' because she's not a writer and so I'm also torn between wondering if I've ever taken her opinions on my writing seriously at all, or if I've just always expected her to agree with me.

Which turns it less into a writing curiosity and more of a 'how good a friend am I, really?' consideration.

Or maybe it's a combination of both. I really have no clue at this point. *laughs*

At any rate, you've given me some good advice, and I'll think about it.

And also, you totally need to watch SPN. Because Dean Winchester is so much love that it's ridiculous.